Originally Answered: I think I'm severely depressed but i don't know how to talk to my parents?
First give yourself a gentle break. Two years is nothing when it comes to grief and loss of a loved one, especially a close sister. It can take 4-5 years to start to get back to normal.
Your parents are busy , but not stupid. They work work work, to drown their own sorrow, and grief, and it is still within them as well. It did not just disappear. They are just working and keep going and waiting the grief out.
They KNOW you are still struggling with all this pain, so are they.
If you want to show them what you wrote here, do that. They won't be surprised.
They may not know there is a newer healing method that would help ALL of you quickly with your grief to reduce the pain you feel and help you . There is no other method like it, and there is even a free version.
So, what I am thinking is for you to write out a version of the question you wrote here and include these web sites and ask for therapy for the whole family, grief help.
they will not know this method will work to reduce pain quickly .
emofree.com, eftuniverse.com , and the pros, eftmasters.com
So, I would do that instead of regular therapy that only has worthless drugs antidepressants to give you.
You dont need those with that method.
So, that is what you could do. just put it into an envelope and somewhere they will find and read it.
You might also consider that there are support groups for children who have lost loved ones, and the ones I know of that are for children/teens who have lost parents to cancer, but they would understand you and also may have other resources for you .
here they are: grouploop.org, kidskonnected.org go there and talk and ask questions, show it to your parents. I think there are also camps for chldren also. Ask Ask Ask
There is also an organization called bbbs.org that you may like, idk.
Listen, when someone dies close to us, it puts us on a different emotional awareness level. things that used to matter, no longer seem as important. Our priorities get clearer, what really matters.
If someone , say friends, have never felt grief that deep or gone through it they simply can't and are unable to imagine how you feel. Some day they will be able to, but not until they expereince it themselves. They will look back and say, oh... I wish I had known for you....
So, find people who have been through it to talk to.
Please show your mom and dad the sites for that kind of healing therapy. It is unique and the best there is.
Please talk to them about how you feel, show them your letter, talk about maybe planting a tree in her name, with a plaque, making a memorial site inside your home to sit and meditate of pray , or light a candle, or whatever you want., maybe a video.
You miss your sister, that is completely understandable. Condolences. Get as many hugs as you can from your parents. they are struggling with how to deal with this as well, and their feelings
I wish you the best .